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bleah (part 2)

thank you to everyone who provided anti smoking encouragement…. I think you’re all nuts… I clearly was healthier as a smoker than I am at this very moment. But I thank you nonetheless.

Lets see… had my last cigarette at about 2pm yesterday, so roughly 30 hours ago. Last one before that was at like 6 pm the previous night, I think. So, basically, I’ve had one smoke in the last 48 hours.

My eyes are blurry. I keep coughing. I have a headache and can’t force my mind to formulate a complete thought in less than 5 minutes. I don’t understand how people quit smoking and gain weight. I’m starving, but I haven’t eaten dinner because I have felt all bloated and like I was going to throw up since lunchtime. Based on symptoms, I am pretty sure that through lack of nicotene exposure I have contracted both ebola and malaria. I quit smoking once before for like a year and a half and I don’t recall it being anywhere near this bad. As I recall, and as I am told by others, day 3 is the worst. I haven’t even gotten the shakes yet. Dammit, at least heroin addicts get methadone.

More later, assuming I survive the night…

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6 comments for “bleah (part 2)

  1. bbz
    January 8, 2003 at 5:24 pm

    congratulations!

    i quit a year and 15 days or so ago and it was a pain in the ass. would have been worse if i wasn’t popping these like mad. go go gadget smokease. i think the hardest part of quitting is giving up the social aspects of it. i had to stop hanging out with other people while they were smoking for a while. i also had a good mindblock where i didn’t think much about smoking. smoking was a slippery thought–if someone started talking about it i’d lose interest and start thinking about something else. good luck!

    1. mav
      January 8, 2003 at 8:26 pm

      Re: congratulations!

      thanx,

      my biggest problem is that I don’t really want to quit smoking. When I make up my mind that I want to do something, I’m usually stubborn enough that I can set my mind to it and get it done, no matter what the pain. That’s how I forced myself to lose weight. But I actually LIKE smoking. I don’t want to quit. I like the social aspect of it. I like how it tastes. I like how it makes me feel. These are all kind of counterproductive to my whole quitting thing. In an ideal world I’d beat the addiction and get to the point where I can not smoke for weeks and then go to a party or whatever and smoke and then be fine again the next day. I’m not there yet. Ugh.

      Oh, and welcome to LJ, bbz.

      1. bbz
        January 9, 2003 at 8:49 am

        Re: congratulations!

        obviously *part* of you wants to stop smoking. smoker-mav and non-smoker-mav are battling for your consciousness. who will ultimately be victorious only time will tell…

  2. January 8, 2003 at 8:16 pm

    alternatives

    > Dammit, at least heroin addicts get methadone.

    Obviously, you should take up heroin to ease the pain of nicotine withdrawl.

    1. mav
      January 8, 2003 at 8:27 pm

      Re: alternatives

      it would probably be cheaper.

  3. January 9, 2003 at 4:30 am

    Your body is just expunging the icky stuff. Keep going! You’re doing great! 🙂

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