Day 465 of 365 More.
Wow. Day 465. 100 days in to year two. 100 days into the first year and I was very excited to have made it that far. It was a special day, because it just felt very real. I knew that I could keep it going for a year. At that point I had no doubt that I was going to finish. But I still needed to prove it to the world.
100 days into this year and I’m still doing this based on inertia. The reason I kept going on day 366 was honestly that I didn’t know what else to do. I kinda felt like I’d regret it if I didn’t keep things up. But the problem is there’s nothing driving me anymore.I don’t know what I’m working towards. I don’t know the point. It’s just this thing I do now. For a while, I just did it because I felt like I was "letting down my fans" if I stopped but now it doesn’t seem like anyone else is even paying attention. My comments are down. My views are down. I just don’t know what the point is. 365 days is about self discovery but I just haven’t felt it lately. All I’ve discovered about myself is that I’m boring me. I’ve been striving to do something different and unique, but I just feel like I’m rehashing the same stuff over and over again.
So if no one else cares and I haven’t started caring yet, why am I doing this? I don’t know.
By the way, I hate sweaters. Always have. So I don’t know why I wore won today. But I figured hey, it was worth taking a shot of. And I guess it kinda has a bit of an abstract feel to it.
Blah, maybe I’ll come up with something tomorrow.
just let the moral be that sometimes everyday life is boring….
those that still stop by do so out of friendship…
keep it up….until you feel like a day off
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@espressoDOM: well, I feel like a day off a lot actually. I’m just hoping that sooner or later I don’t feel like it and I kinda discover something about myself. You know?
i hear ya…. keep ur head up
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This is very different from your usual style – minimalism you are not. It’s nice, though. Nice job.
I saw the thumbnail this morning and my first thought was "What the hell is he doing wearing a sweater?" You must be very bored to have put on a sweater. I’m only emphasizing that fact for the folks that don’t know you as well as I 😉
Who cares if others are looking? I know, I know, WE care… but theoretically we don’t! We are doing this to prove a point to ourselves. I"ll let you know if/when I figure out what that point is…
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@espressoDOM: working on it.
@gotplaid?: thanks. I’m just trying to find ways to amuse myself.
@lrayholly: I actually own 2 sweaters that I wear on a really cold day. This is my less favorite of the two but its the only true sweater I’ve ever been able to tolerate. The other one isn’t really a sweater. it’s not knitted. It’s more like a sweatshirt, material-wise, but its cut to look like a sweater, so its actually quite comfy. And really, I’m not doing this for me anymore. I really did prove everything I needed to prove to myself ages ago. I’m not sure why I’m doing it now.
good luck mav!
i still stop by…even if i don’t leave a comment all of the time 🙂
ya know, george just up and quit the 2nd year, i think about 75 days into it…he just didn’t do it one day…i think he feels more liberated than anything, but you’d have to ask him directly.
@pi c’s: yeah… we’ll see, there’s days I just don’t care at all and then there’s days where I’m really glad I haven’t given up. I’d feel kinda down about just quitting since I started the whole thing. There’s this whole feeling of obligation.