Day 931 of 365 Again. I give up! I’ve spent the last several hours hacking the database and code for the Cosmic Hellcats website. Somehow character encoding or translation on my movable type installation or my mysql db got screwed up, and for the life of me I can’t figure out how, but several of…
Day 930 of 365 Again. Yeah, ok, I’m pretty sure at this point that I am indeed losing my mind. That’s ok, I never used it for much anyway. Still trying to get a photoshoot set up. I’ve been going stir crazy without one. I don’t even remember the last time I got to do…
Day 922 of 365 Again. Just taking a break… trying to reflect and figure out my future. Sadly, I still feel like I can’t quite see it. Sigh… why can’t I just be rich? I don’t need to be really rich. Just rich enough to do some of the things I want. Any of the…
Day 921 of 365 Again. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I’m smoking, filthy, dirty, disgusting habit, I know. But you know what, it looks damn cool for pictures. I haven’t been doing any photoshoots lately. Not since Christmas. I really need to fix that. I miss it. Wrote a bunch of prospective models tonight. Hopefully that means…
Day 919 of 365 Again. I have a bad shoulder. Dislocated it early in my pro-wrestling career and it’s never been the same since. Really, it doesn’t give me too much trouble, but every once in a while it stiffens up a bit and doing this becomes hard. I guess that’s not really all that…
Day 916 of 365 Again. I really just wanted a chance to do something cool I’ve felt like my self-portraits weren’t much of anything lately. I just wanted to do something creative and I started thinking of something weird to do. It turned into kind of a magical/superhero thing I guess. Big surprise. Anyway, it…
Day 915 of 365 Again. I’m always naked, under my clothes. I had no real idea for a shot today, and I was running out of time, while I was working on tonights Cosmic Hellcats. I was talking to Brigid at the time, and asked her for an idea. She suggested the same thing she…
Day 909 of 365 Again. I’ve had a wanderlust lately. A desire to go somewhere and explore the world. Live life. Being something different and new. Haven’t felt it in a while, and I don’t really know what to do about it. I certainly don’t have the resources to just pick up and walk the…
Day 906 of 365 Again. This is hard… I’ve spent the last 906 days documenting my life. As far as I know, longer than anyone on flickr. Given that, you’d assume that I like talking about myself. I really don’t. I just like talking. I’m actually extremely private about things that really matter to me.…
Day 902 of 365 Again. Been thinking a lot lately about what’s really in my heart and in my head. Where I want my life to go. What I really want to do. I wish I could say that I’ve found some answers, but really, in a lot of ways, it’s just more questions. I…
Day 899 of 365 Again. Ok, so I guess it’s going to get worse before it gets better. Woke up this morning feeling kinda sick but being determined to get to work. Driving to work pretty much wore me out so I took care of everything I needed to for today and drove back home…
Day 898 of 365 Again. Ok, yes I am offcially sick as a dog. Today as horrible. I slept in til like 3. This is something I never ever ever do. But I really needed it. The only reason I even got up then was that I knew i needed to work on Hellcats. Thank…
Day 897 of 365 Again. IWC had a wrestling show today, where the guest of honor was the legendary Ric Flair. I really wanted to do commentary for it, despite the fact that my body pretty much didn’t want to do anything other than lay in bed and die, so I pretty much rested most…
Day 895 of 365 Again. Yep, being sick sucks. My stomach hurts. My head hurts. My very soul hurts. It really sucks. I kinda want to say something philosophical here. Something about the way that being sick physically drains you emotionally. Fills you with dread and hopelessness and saps your will to really do anything.…
Day 894 of 365 Again. I am so sick of Steph… Ok, not really, but I am sick because of Steph. Or so it seems anyway. She hasn’t really been feeling well since we got back from vacation and now I’m starting to come down with it. The problem with my life is that I…